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August 11 August awaits once more!Hey everyone!
Classes are starting up again for the fall. Big Jr. year as a big, bad college girl! Still working part time for Children Inc. I've been having thoughts of getting a new job. We recently got "raises" and I put it in quotes because the amount we got was a joke. I've been there for almost 2 years and this was the first raise I've gotten, and I'm still making way less than I should. It's CHILD CARE for Pete's sake! It's an essential part of most people's lives, it's not like I'm dog sitting...
So Stephen graduated from Purdue and he got offered a job at Target...HEAD QUARTERS! HOORAY! The only bad thing is that the H.Q. is in Minniapolis, Minnisota. He uprooted his firmly planted family and friend ties a little over a month ago to go live up there. I drove up there with his parents a few weeks ago for a visit. I hadn't seen him in over a month, was driving us both loopy. It was an 11 hour drive but we took it over 2 days (which I was soo happy about)We stayed at a super 8 and they had the coolest thing....When Stephen's Dad made the reservations the employee asked how many would be staying in the room and he said 3...we open the door to our room and there are 3 QUEEN SIZE BEDS in the one room!! THREE!! It was the coolest thing ever! So we each got our own bed :) We stayed up there with Stephen for about 4 days. It was really cool. We saw the Target H.Q., we saw Mall of America (not as big as you think it would be)we had thai food, went to an Ikea (that's a whole day's experience in itself!!)So there was really no dull moments.
Well, I have a lot to do tomorrow so I'd better go to bed. Hope everyone is doing well. Let me know!
Person of the day is my half-sister Samantha. She's 9 and I see her at work everyday (she's one of the kids, duh :) )and she and I have a unique relationship. We are pretty close, yet I don't live with her. I see her every week day, but it's not really quality time because I'm in my "teacher" role and we don't get to hang out as much as I would like. I wish things could have been different between us. I'm 11 years older than her so that makes it harder too; we can't relate to each other. Here's to you kid.
Word of the day is immature. Some of the people I work with and some of my family members are this word. Very frustrating, grow up.
I don't know about you guys, but I've had 2 glasses of water already AND taken my multi-vitamin AND put on sunscreen while I swam with the kids at Donner! So ha! You need to get with it people! :) Everyone sleep well and that way you can feel refreshed in the morning!
Love ya!
Mindy The Lou June 03 ContentHi-
I went shopping today. I got 3 tops, 2 pairs of flip flops and a cell phone. I am not a shopper at all so today was a huge shopping day for me; especially the cell phone.
As I was driving home the sun was setting on the lush green fields of Southern Indiana giving the grass and the crops a beautiful glow. This sight and the wind in my hair made me realize that I don't need clothes or high-tech things to make me happy. Material things are not what define me. This thought made me realize all the more how much I truly appreciate God and my family and friends; THEY are who define who I am, not things. I measure happiness and succsess in my surrounding support system of my family and friends, not how much stuff I have. Everyone I know has taught me some sort of value and knowledge in life and that has taught me to be wise in a vast majority of areas in my life. I have so many people that love me and that has taught me to love them and others back. I realized today that I have a wonderful life right here where I am. I don't need fancy clothes or name brand shoes OR a mobile phone to have a good life. Not having these things has made me a better person and especially more patient and understanding.
The person of the day is anyone who has loved me. Thank you for loving me for who I am and for all the lessons you have taught me. Thank you so much!
Word of the day is excited. I'm so excited for what God is going to do in my life in the future, I can only imagine!
Love you all! Have a wonderful rest of the day and wear sunscreen, you'll burn!
-Mindy May 19 Hey Hey Hey!Hey all!
I know I always appologize for not writing a blog in awhile, but this time I don't, haha. I've been busy with school and work and friends.
Well school is out for the summer but I'm taking one summer class, C&IT 107. It's 4 and a half hours long, twice a week! It kills my inner child...every time I go. The little kid that lives inside me doesn't want to sit in a lab for almost 5 hours, she wants to PLAY!
Stephen graduated from Purdue this last weekend! I was so proud of him! I've never been to a college graduation besides my moms' from nursing school. When I saw Stephen in his cap and gown, I swelled up with pride and got teary eyed. The combonation of knowing him so well and actually helping him a bit with some classes and giving advice all fell into one and hit me right in the heart! The audotorium (spelled wrong, sorry) was beautiful! Wonderful night, I'll post some pics. Bill came to the reception, good to see you Bill, looking foward to seeing that movie!
I'm playing softball on friday nights now at lincoln park if anyone wants to come watch. Our team is CE Systems and the shirt is baby blue. Games are usually between 7 and 8. So far our team is 5 and 0, we ROCK!
Speaking of which, I need to join Total Fitness again. I'm real out of shape. I run the bases once and I"m really out of breath, it's sad. My Dad's side of the family is going to Florida the first part of June so I need to look decent in a bathing suit.
I've got facebook and myspace now too...if you want to check those out they are www.myspace.com/mindy_lousters and http://iupui.facebook.com/profile.php?id=27314439. Feel free to leave comments. I feel like I've let down my msn space....*msn space, cover your ears* but the others are so much cooler!
Person of the day is Cheya. She is my World of Warcraft character, level 49. She is always there and she's so cool!
Word of the day is relaxation. Only 4 more days of school left (for BCSC) and then I can relax a bit. I also heard some songs today that relaxed me so that was good. I had a parent yell at me today so that was not so relaxing, hhahaha. Oh the joys of the childcare business....
Hope everyone else is ok. Drink your water and now that the sun is out, use sun screen! Don't want to burn like I do my fair skinned friends! You know who you are!
Love ya!
Mindy March 14 March MadnessHello Everyone!
Wow, almost 3 months later and here I am. This is my last semester as a sophomore. I can't believe how old I am getting...I always thought that when you hit your 20's that you would automatically feel like an adult. I was wrong.
How am I you ask? Well, I'm still not so hot. I have good days and bad days. Stephen has been coming home a lot. I love seeing him. The only bad thing is that I work so hard on not thinking about him and concentrating on other things while he is at Purdue that when he comes home I loose everything I"ve worked on. I feel strong and confident in my decision of ending it when he is not in sight, but when he is with me I always doubt myself. Isn't that how life goes though? It's easy to do what is right when you have no temptation dangling in front of you, but when it is so easily accesable and attractive, THAT is what gives you character when you resist. I"m starting to think that I will have to start avoiding him if he doesn't come around and realize that his place in my life has changed and wallowing in it will not move him foward. As callosed as that sounds, it's the harsh truth. I am losing my strength to say no all the time. Why can't he say no sometimes? It makes me look and feel like the bad guy. I hurt everyday just as much as he does, if not more.
Stephen was also offered a job in Minneapolis (however you spell it). I can't see him just up and moving halfway across the country for a job. He's lived in the same town, city, block and house for all of his 22 years. He is not about to just move like that. He says he is though...scares me.
That's enough of that, I don't want to be any more emotional that I am. Whenever I hear the James Blunt song, "Goodbye My Lover" I ALWAYS cry. It's such a sad song and it nails EXACTLY what we had. (except for the share your bed part) Well, I have 40 pages to read and highlight in my Psych. and Law book so wish me luck. Night everybody!
Person of the day is Stephen. Honey, you know what we had. You know how deep and special it was. Just know that I will never, no matter what forget that, never. I'll be here for you and love you no matter what.
Word of the day is blury. My life feels blury since the breakup. I can't focus on anything and nothing is as happy as it was.
As always, drink your water and this time, have some angel food cake as well. I love angel food cake.
Love you all!
Mindy Lou December 29 Mystery ManHola everybody-
Well, I am still sad today. But it's not your normal sad, it's a ....lonley and depressing sad....but being sad can be lonley and it can most defintley be depressing so I guess I"m the normal sad, hehe.
Today was my step-mom's (B) bithday. We had dinner at Texas Roadhouse. It was delish. I am offically Texas Roadhouse'ed out. I"ve eaten there like 4 times in the past month and a half. If I hear one more country song....
I think that's why I'm sad. Listenting to the country music puts me in a sad mood. I don't think that this time was because of the music though, it just helped. All I could think about while we were having dinner was how I just wanted to be held. Not by anybody inpeticular, just a guy. I imagined myself in a low lit room and I was slow dancing close with some guy and it just felt so good being in their strong ams and being able to lay my head on their shoulder. There is something about slow dancing that I love. It's the closeness (cheek to cheek) and the warmness and the feeling of their arms around me. I just feel loved and important and warm. There is nothing sexual or kinky about it, it's just human nature to want to be held close to someone.
Tonight I realized that I have a weakness. I need men in my life. I am starting to think that I am not as strong as I thought I was as far as being independent. I told myself that when I was single again that I would stay that way for a long while. I felt like I needed that time to be strong in myself and not to rely on guys for support and hard times. I"m not the kind of girl that NEEDS a boyfriend to be secure, I just need male companionship. There IS a difference. I have had a couple of guys show intrest in me since the break up and I find myself imagining dating them already .....and I keep telling myself, "MINDY, THERE IS NO REASON TO !! YOU CAN BE JUST AS OK BY YOURSELF" but it's really hard. My biggest problem now is that I don't want a boyfriend, I just want to go on dates, kiss whoever and have some fun. That is so not like me but that is how I feel. I feel like I've deprived myself of fun for a loooong time.
So I don't know. I"m in a really hard and confusing spot. I think I want to date other people (or at least kiss them, hehe) but at the same time I am just now realizing how much Stephen means to me....he was always there for me without question and would do anything for me. I still love him so much and I don't think that will ever go away. I'm being pulled in 2 different ways. If anyone has the answer let me know, haha. It would save me lots of thought and grief.
I've been listening to Bryan Adams' "Anthology" (Everything I do) I do it for you" for the past half an hour. I love that song. That would be one of the songs on the C.D. playing during my slow dance with the mystery man. I wonder if I will find out who he is.
Person of the day is my uncle, Rusty. He's not very well off but he's got a huge heart. I've always liked him. He's one of my favorite uncles.
Word of the day is slow. Since christmas, things are going slow and that is GOOD. I really deserved a break from work and school. Life in general should slow way down. I'm one of those people who don't mind waiting an hour at a resturant for a table. I can entertain myself and talk to my lunch/dinner date about anything. I am content on just sitting and waiting and talking about nothing.
I hope all who read this sleep well and have a sweet dream or two. Drink a couple of glasses of water while you're at it. Nobody drinks water anymore...always pop. It's not good for ya. Much prayer for me and good night all.
In the words of Kip on Napolean Dynomite, "Peace Out."
Mindy Lousters
December 27 Sad NewsHi everyone.
Sorry to put you all in a bad moods with 2 bad blogs in a row. Just wanted to let you guys know that Stephen and I broke up. I'll give you all a minute to let it sink in....
I did it about 3 weeks ago. We had talked about it for several months and one night I felt like if I wasn't going to do it then I never would. It was a Sunday night. Why you ask? Well, here's why.
For a long time I never saw marriage happening between us and we date to potentially find a spouse right? I didn't want to get rid of him, just the dating. I didn't realize how much of a part he played in my life until he was gone. He really was my best friend. I spent the better part of 3 years with him everyday. I have never been so close to anyone in my life (except God of course) and I loved him for that. It made it espeacially hard because he's so handsome and wholesome. He's really a good guy. He's the guy that everyone likes and knows and always has something nice to say. He's a Christian and goes to church and he's gonna graduate from Purdue in May with a Bachlor Degree in Computer Technology and he's REALLY funny. Everything sounds great on paper (or blog, hehe) but it just didn't feel right to further the relationship by marriage. Most of my friends told me that there is no such thing as Mr. Perfect and that I should marry him because we love each other so much. But I realized that just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to marry them. I belive that we are all meant to be with some particular person. I think Stephen was in my life to prepare me for that person, but he is not the one.
Breaking up with him was the hardest thing I"ve ever had to do. We both just cried for hours. Even 3 weeks later it's really hard still; plus Christmas and New Years and Valentines Day. We agreed to "stay friends." I put it in quotes because we cannot be 'friends,' because we were so much more than that. We are between friends and dating. We are frating. hahahahaha. How's that?
Keep us both in your prayers.
Word of the day is none other than, frating.
Person of the day is Tyler. He's been my next closest buddy even before Stephen. We had a really good conversation tonight and he deserves to be on the Mindy List. Yay!
Well, it's 2:12am so I'm going to bed. I got a new alarm clock for Christmas that plays the sounds of the ocean and rain and summer night and waterfall and such; it even displays the time on the ceiling if you are too lazy to turn your head to see the actual clock. It's soo cool. I look foward to going to bed now. Everyone wash their hands! Flu season is still upon us and take your vitamans!
Love you all!
Mindy Lou December 01 The Nice has Ended!This is a rant.
I am so tired of being nice all the time. I have to be presentable, nice, fair, honest, good, helpful, smiling and bubbly for my job every SINGLE DAY. I get so tired of it. I love being happy and those things, but sometimes I just wanna smack a kid and punch a parent.
I feel like I'm the only one that tries with everything that I am to be nice and fair. And you know what? I don't fee like being nice a holding back my feelings. I told my mom to shutup a little while ago and it felt great. I have no remorse for it. I will within 5 minutes but for right now, I would say it again. She was making me mad and butting in and I wanted her to stop so I just flat out told her to shut up. She got mad at me and told me that was very disrespectful and didn't appreciate it. I said, "I know." I knew what I said and what it meant....why else would I say it?? I was TRYING to make her feel bad. People NEVER go out of their way to make me feel the way I bend over backwards to make them feel. So I need to tone down my niceness. I give so much to everyone around me and I get not even half of it back. I usually don't ask for it back, but right now, I WANT IT BACK! If I hold the door for you, say THANK YOU. I need to hear it. If I do something speacial for you, TELL ME HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO YOU. People are so stupid and IMMATURE. At Clifty Creek where I work there are parents that have the maturity of THEIR OWN CHILDREN. That is freakin' ridiculous!!!! GROW UP AND DO YOUR PART IN THE WORLD YOU LAZY BUMS!!! GAH!
I just get so upset sometimes. I still wanna backhand a kid though. By telling my mom to shut up gave me the relase I needed. I meant every bad meaning behind it too. I know I shouldn't have said it and deep down I am sorry, but I'm not going to entertain that thought right now while I"m mad. We will be talking and she automatically assumes that I NEED to hear what is on her mind. She thinks she has something monumental coming out of her mouth everytime she speaks...and that's not true. Sometimes she needs to just close her mouth and L-I-S-T-E-N. AHHHH! |
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