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August 11 August awaits once more!Hey everyone!
Classes are starting up again for the fall. Big Jr. year as a big, bad college girl! Still working part time for Children Inc. I've been having thoughts of getting a new job. We recently got "raises" and I put it in quotes because the amount we got was a joke. I've been there for almost 2 years and this was the first raise I've gotten, and I'm still making way less than I should. It's CHILD CARE for Pete's sake! It's an essential part of most people's lives, it's not like I'm dog sitting...
So Stephen graduated from Purdue and he got offered a job at Target...HEAD QUARTERS! HOORAY! The only bad thing is that the H.Q. is in Minniapolis, Minnisota. He uprooted his firmly planted family and friend ties a little over a month ago to go live up there. I drove up there with his parents a few weeks ago for a visit. I hadn't seen him in over a month, was driving us both loopy. It was an 11 hour drive but we took it over 2 days (which I was soo happy about)We stayed at a super 8 and they had the coolest thing....When Stephen's Dad made the reservations the employee asked how many would be staying in the room and he said 3...we open the door to our room and there are 3 QUEEN SIZE BEDS in the one room!! THREE!! It was the coolest thing ever! So we each got our own bed :) We stayed up there with Stephen for about 4 days. It was really cool. We saw the Target H.Q., we saw Mall of America (not as big as you think it would be)we had thai food, went to an Ikea (that's a whole day's experience in itself!!)So there was really no dull moments.
Well, I have a lot to do tomorrow so I'd better go to bed. Hope everyone is doing well. Let me know!
Person of the day is my half-sister Samantha. She's 9 and I see her at work everyday (she's one of the kids, duh :) )and she and I have a unique relationship. We are pretty close, yet I don't live with her. I see her every week day, but it's not really quality time because I'm in my "teacher" role and we don't get to hang out as much as I would like. I wish things could have been different between us. I'm 11 years older than her so that makes it harder too; we can't relate to each other. Here's to you kid.
Word of the day is immature. Some of the people I work with and some of my family members are this word. Very frustrating, grow up.
I don't know about you guys, but I've had 2 glasses of water already AND taken my multi-vitamin AND put on sunscreen while I swam with the kids at Donner! So ha! You need to get with it people! :) Everyone sleep well and that way you can feel refreshed in the morning!
Love ya!
Mindy The Lou June 03 ContentHi-
I went shopping today. I got 3 tops, 2 pairs of flip flops and a cell phone. I am not a shopper at all so today was a huge shopping day for me; especially the cell phone.
As I was driving home the sun was setting on the lush green fields of Southern Indiana giving the grass and the crops a beautiful glow. This sight and the wind in my hair made me realize that I don't need clothes or high-tech things to make me happy. Material things are not what define me. This thought made me realize all the more how much I truly appreciate God and my family and friends; THEY are who define who I am, not things. I measure happiness and succsess in my surrounding support system of my family and friends, not how much stuff I have. Everyone I know has taught me some sort of value and knowledge in life and that has taught me to be wise in a vast majority of areas in my life. I have so many people that love me and that has taught me to love them and others back. I realized today that I have a wonderful life right here where I am. I don't need fancy clothes or name brand shoes OR a mobile phone to have a good life. Not having these things has made me a better person and especially more patient and understanding.
The person of the day is anyone who has loved me. Thank you for loving me for who I am and for all the lessons you have taught me. Thank you so much!
Word of the day is excited. I'm so excited for what God is going to do in my life in the future, I can only imagine!
Love you all! Have a wonderful rest of the day and wear sunscreen, you'll burn!
-Mindy May 19 Hey Hey Hey!Hey all!
I know I always appologize for not writing a blog in awhile, but this time I don't, haha. I've been busy with school and work and friends.
Well school is out for the summer but I'm taking one summer class, C&IT 107. It's 4 and a half hours long, twice a week! It kills my inner child...every time I go. The little kid that lives inside me doesn't want to sit in a lab for almost 5 hours, she wants to PLAY!
Stephen graduated from Purdue this last weekend! I was so proud of him! I've never been to a college graduation besides my moms' from nursing school. When I saw Stephen in his cap and gown, I swelled up with pride and got teary eyed. The combonation of knowing him so well and actually helping him a bit with some classes and giving advice all fell into one and hit me right in the heart! The audotorium (spelled wrong, sorry) was beautiful! Wonderful night, I'll post some pics. Bill came to the reception, good to see you Bill, looking foward to seeing that movie!
I'm playing softball on friday nights now at lincoln park if anyone wants to come watch. Our team is CE Systems and the shirt is baby blue. Games are usually between 7 and 8. So far our team is 5 and 0, we ROCK!
Speaking of which, I need to join Total Fitness again. I'm real out of shape. I run the bases once and I"m really out of breath, it's sad. My Dad's side of the family is going to Florida the first part of June so I need to look decent in a bathing suit.
I've got facebook and myspace now too...if you want to check those out they are www.myspace.com/mindy_lousters and http://iupui.facebook.com/profile.php?id=27314439. Feel free to leave comments. I feel like I've let down my msn space....*msn space, cover your ears* but the others are so much cooler!
Person of the day is Cheya. She is my World of Warcraft character, level 49. She is always there and she's so cool!
Word of the day is relaxation. Only 4 more days of school left (for BCSC) and then I can relax a bit. I also heard some songs today that relaxed me so that was good. I had a parent yell at me today so that was not so relaxing, hhahaha. Oh the joys of the childcare business....
Hope everyone else is ok. Drink your water and now that the sun is out, use sun screen! Don't want to burn like I do my fair skinned friends! You know who you are!
Love ya!
Mindy March 14 March MadnessHello Everyone!
Wow, almost 3 months later and here I am. This is my last semester as a sophomore. I can't believe how old I am getting...I always thought that when you hit your 20's that you would automatically feel like an adult. I was wrong.
How am I you ask? Well, I'm still not so hot. I have good days and bad days. Stephen has been coming home a lot. I love seeing him. The only bad thing is that I work so hard on not thinking about him and concentrating on other things while he is at Purdue that when he comes home I loose everything I"ve worked on. I feel strong and confident in my decision of ending it when he is not in sight, but when he is with me I always doubt myself. Isn't that how life goes though? It's easy to do what is right when you have no temptation dangling in front of you, but when it is so easily accesable and attractive, THAT is what gives you character when you resist. I"m starting to think that I will have to start avoiding him if he doesn't come around and realize that his place in my life has changed and wallowing in it will not move him foward. As callosed as that sounds, it's the harsh truth. I am losing my strength to say no all the time. Why can't he say no sometimes? It makes me look and feel like the bad guy. I hurt everyday just as much as he does, if not more.
Stephen was also offered a job in Minneapolis (however you spell it). I can't see him just up and moving halfway across the country for a job. He's lived in the same town, city, block and house for all of his 22 years. He is not about to just move like that. He says he is though...scares me.
That's enough of that, I don't want to be any more emotional that I am. Whenever I hear the James Blunt song, "Goodbye My Lover" I ALWAYS cry. It's such a sad song and it nails EXACTLY what we had. (except for the share your bed part) Well, I have 40 pages to read and highlight in my Psych. and Law book so wish me luck. Night everybody!
Person of the day is Stephen. Honey, you know what we had. You know how deep and special it was. Just know that I will never, no matter what forget that, never. I'll be here for you and love you no matter what.
Word of the day is blury. My life feels blury since the breakup. I can't focus on anything and nothing is as happy as it was.
As always, drink your water and this time, have some angel food cake as well. I love angel food cake.
Love you all!
Mindy Lou December 29 Mystery ManHola everybody-
Well, I am still sad today. But it's not your normal sad, it's a ....lonley and depressing sad....but being sad can be lonley and it can most defintley be depressing so I guess I"m the normal sad, hehe.
Today was my step-mom's (B) bithday. We had dinner at Texas Roadhouse. It was delish. I am offically Texas Roadhouse'ed out. I"ve eaten there like 4 times in the past month and a half. If I hear one more country song....
I think that's why I'm sad. Listenting to the country music puts me in a sad mood. I don't think that this time was because of the music though, it just helped. All I could think about while we were having dinner was how I just wanted to be held. Not by anybody inpeticular, just a guy. I imagined myself in a low lit room and I was slow dancing close with some guy and it just felt so good being in their strong ams and being able to lay my head on their shoulder. There is something about slow dancing that I love. It's the closeness (cheek to cheek) and the warmness and the feeling of their arms around me. I just feel loved and important and warm. There is nothing sexual or kinky about it, it's just human nature to want to be held close to someone.
Tonight I realized that I have a weakness. I need men in my life. I am starting to think that I am not as strong as I thought I was as far as being independent. I told myself that when I was single again that I would stay that way for a long while. I felt like I needed that time to be strong in myself and not to rely on guys for support and hard times. I"m not the kind of girl that NEEDS a boyfriend to be secure, I just need male companionship. There IS a difference. I have had a couple of guys show intrest in me since the break up and I find myself imagining dating them already .....and I keep telling myself, "MINDY, THERE IS NO REASON TO !! YOU CAN BE JUST AS OK BY YOURSELF" but it's really hard. My biggest problem now is that I don't want a boyfriend, I just want to go on dates, kiss whoever and have some fun. That is so not like me but that is how I feel. I feel like I've deprived myself of fun for a loooong time.
So I don't know. I"m in a really hard and confusing spot. I think I want to date other people (or at least kiss them, hehe) but at the same time I am just now realizing how much Stephen means to me....he was always there for me without question and would do anything for me. I still love him so much and I don't think that will ever go away. I'm being pulled in 2 different ways. If anyone has the answer let me know, haha. It would save me lots of thought and grief.
I've been listening to Bryan Adams' "Anthology" (Everything I do) I do it for you" for the past half an hour. I love that song. That would be one of the songs on the C.D. playing during my slow dance with the mystery man. I wonder if I will find out who he is.
Person of the day is my uncle, Rusty. He's not very well off but he's got a huge heart. I've always liked him. He's one of my favorite uncles.
Word of the day is slow. Since christmas, things are going slow and that is GOOD. I really deserved a break from work and school. Life in general should slow way down. I'm one of those people who don't mind waiting an hour at a resturant for a table. I can entertain myself and talk to my lunch/dinner date about anything. I am content on just sitting and waiting and talking about nothing.
I hope all who read this sleep well and have a sweet dream or two. Drink a couple of glasses of water while you're at it. Nobody drinks water anymore...always pop. It's not good for ya. Much prayer for me and good night all.
In the words of Kip on Napolean Dynomite, "Peace Out."
Mindy Lousters
December 27 Sad NewsHi everyone.
Sorry to put you all in a bad moods with 2 bad blogs in a row. Just wanted to let you guys know that Stephen and I broke up. I'll give you all a minute to let it sink in....
I did it about 3 weeks ago. We had talked about it for several months and one night I felt like if I wasn't going to do it then I never would. It was a Sunday night. Why you ask? Well, here's why.
For a long time I never saw marriage happening between us and we date to potentially find a spouse right? I didn't want to get rid of him, just the dating. I didn't realize how much of a part he played in my life until he was gone. He really was my best friend. I spent the better part of 3 years with him everyday. I have never been so close to anyone in my life (except God of course) and I loved him for that. It made it espeacially hard because he's so handsome and wholesome. He's really a good guy. He's the guy that everyone likes and knows and always has something nice to say. He's a Christian and goes to church and he's gonna graduate from Purdue in May with a Bachlor Degree in Computer Technology and he's REALLY funny. Everything sounds great on paper (or blog, hehe) but it just didn't feel right to further the relationship by marriage. Most of my friends told me that there is no such thing as Mr. Perfect and that I should marry him because we love each other so much. But I realized that just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to marry them. I belive that we are all meant to be with some particular person. I think Stephen was in my life to prepare me for that person, but he is not the one.
Breaking up with him was the hardest thing I"ve ever had to do. We both just cried for hours. Even 3 weeks later it's really hard still; plus Christmas and New Years and Valentines Day. We agreed to "stay friends." I put it in quotes because we cannot be 'friends,' because we were so much more than that. We are between friends and dating. We are frating. hahahahaha. How's that?
Keep us both in your prayers.
Word of the day is none other than, frating.
Person of the day is Tyler. He's been my next closest buddy even before Stephen. We had a really good conversation tonight and he deserves to be on the Mindy List. Yay!
Well, it's 2:12am so I'm going to bed. I got a new alarm clock for Christmas that plays the sounds of the ocean and rain and summer night and waterfall and such; it even displays the time on the ceiling if you are too lazy to turn your head to see the actual clock. It's soo cool. I look foward to going to bed now. Everyone wash their hands! Flu season is still upon us and take your vitamans!
Love you all!
Mindy Lou December 01 The Nice has Ended!This is a rant.
I am so tired of being nice all the time. I have to be presentable, nice, fair, honest, good, helpful, smiling and bubbly for my job every SINGLE DAY. I get so tired of it. I love being happy and those things, but sometimes I just wanna smack a kid and punch a parent.
I feel like I'm the only one that tries with everything that I am to be nice and fair. And you know what? I don't fee like being nice a holding back my feelings. I told my mom to shutup a little while ago and it felt great. I have no remorse for it. I will within 5 minutes but for right now, I would say it again. She was making me mad and butting in and I wanted her to stop so I just flat out told her to shut up. She got mad at me and told me that was very disrespectful and didn't appreciate it. I said, "I know." I knew what I said and what it meant....why else would I say it?? I was TRYING to make her feel bad. People NEVER go out of their way to make me feel the way I bend over backwards to make them feel. So I need to tone down my niceness. I give so much to everyone around me and I get not even half of it back. I usually don't ask for it back, but right now, I WANT IT BACK! If I hold the door for you, say THANK YOU. I need to hear it. If I do something speacial for you, TELL ME HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO YOU. People are so stupid and IMMATURE. At Clifty Creek where I work there are parents that have the maturity of THEIR OWN CHILDREN. That is freakin' ridiculous!!!! GROW UP AND DO YOUR PART IN THE WORLD YOU LAZY BUMS!!! GAH!
I just get so upset sometimes. I still wanna backhand a kid though. By telling my mom to shut up gave me the relase I needed. I meant every bad meaning behind it too. I know I shouldn't have said it and deep down I am sorry, but I'm not going to entertain that thought right now while I"m mad. We will be talking and she automatically assumes that I NEED to hear what is on her mind. She thinks she has something monumental coming out of her mouth everytime she speaks...and that's not true. Sometimes she needs to just close her mouth and L-I-S-T-E-N. AHHHH! November 27 ReflectionHello everyone!
Thanksgiving went well. I went to my dad's. He deep-fried 2 turkeys...where else but Indiana (and maybe KY)would people DEEP FRY a turkey? Well, it doesn't matter because it was really good, haha. It was a watershed thanksgiving for me. I feltl like an adult this time. I know that sounds weird because I'm almost 20, but I guess I never got that particular mind set. Does that makes sense? I usually was told or strongly persuaded wether I go to my mom's or dad's house on holidays (since they got divorced) but this time I made the decision myself. I know that sounds small but I think it needed to happen. I also fit in as a woman. I got to help put things away and do dishes. It's not how it sounds...it's not like the typical, "The woman's place is in the kitchen!!" type thing. It was the fact that the other older women thought I was old and mature enough to include me and rely on me to get things done. I usually fell in the crack between adulthood and sitting with the kids. It was nice to fit in. I now know my place. :)
I drove the Honda. It actually went well. I drove around 2 blocks for about half an hour...got up to 3rd gear! My only problem is taking off. I don't give it enough gas. Once I'm moving I'm fine. It's still a project in progress. I really need to learn how to drive it...getting tired of the van. I'll be at a stoplight and see kids my own age next to me and they'll give me a look like, "Where's the kids?" And there are none, haha. I just drive my parents white mini van.
I have so much crap to do....These next 3 weeks will be looooooooooooooooooong. Between finals and work and shopping for Christmas. I had 5 days for Thanksgiving and it felt like 4 hours. I worked and was too busy doing projects... I work to make money for college and then I have no spending money for myself then I get depressed because I have no time to myself....it's a viscous cyle. GAH! College really sucks sometimes!
Well, I"m gonna eat dinner. Still have MASHED POTATOES and stuffing left over....sounds yummy huh? Wish me luck and lots o' prayers please for this week.
Person of the day is my sunday school teacher, Kyle. He's going through a lot and I really look up to him.
Word of the day is love. I realized that you have to truly love yourself before you can whole-heartedly love someone else. It's a beautiful to love yourself. I encourage everyone to make a list of 10 things that you LOVE or enjoy about yourself and keep it handy everyday. If you have a bad day then just read the list. It will remind you of who you are and what you have to offer to others. I mean it, MAKE A LIST!!
Sleep tight and drink lots o' water and take vitaman C....cold season is upon us!
Love you guys,
Mindy November 14 I'm back in action!Hi.
Hello everyone. I'm really sorry it's been so long since I wrote last....over a month! Nothing has really changed...I'm a lot less emotional with stephen, haha. Dont cry as much. It's kind of humbling how little your life can change in a month.
After church tonight we took home a lady to an assisted living place who needed a ride. Mom and I helped her to the car and to her room and such. I bring it up becasue it just so happened that I had a great-aunt die from Parkinsons in the very room next to the lady we were taking home. The aunt died a little over a year ago...it was a really emotional time for me. I got news of it on a mission trip in New Orleans over 14 hours away. Just being in that building brought back so many memories, let alone that I had to pass her room. We were close. I know that she was saved and is now in Heaven but I never got to go to the funeral, thus I never got real closure. The last time I saw her she didn't know who I was...couldn't even see me. I don't wish that upon anybody. I now have a grandpa with Parkinsons and he is seeing people who aren't there. I've been making a real effort to connect and spend time with him all I can...don't want the same thing to happen again.
On a lighter note, Jeff, my step-dad, pinkey sweared me that he would teach me to drive the Honda 3 times a week for a half an hour. For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, after my wreck in Febuary, the parents got another car (cheap and used). The only problem is that it's a stick shift...Mindy can't drive a stick. Thus the pinkey swear, haha. Hopefully soon I will be able to. I've driven it twice so I have the basic idea. I'll keep you posted.
I'm gonna include some nature pictures. AKA my cats and a praying mantis I found on the patio door, haha. Enjoy! Oh, and tomorrow I"m scheduling my class for next semester so wish me luck!
Person of the day is my great-aunt. I miss her so much.
Word of the day is cheese. Long story. Ask my mom, haha.
Sleep tight and take a mulit-vitamin!
Mindy Lou October 11 Busy and Sleepy DayHello.
I like this color...very fall and Halloween like.....
Any suggestions what Steve and I should be for Halloween?
How is everyone? Good I hope. Today was busy. Class at 1:00 then off to work until 6:00. Meeting at 6:30 for a group project until 7:30. 7:30 dinner at my house with grandpa, Margo, Victor and all 4 kids, aunts and uncles with their 5 kids....and stephen. There were a crap load of ppl in my house tonight. We were supposed to have a fish fry but all the guys caught was one big catfish...not enough to feed us all. So we had mexican. It was really good.
Today was bitter sweet. Felt good to see grandpa and the whole family but at the same time Stephen goes home tomorrow and I have class and work all day so I won't see him. I had to choose between family and hanging out with him....obviously family came first this time. The dinner was kind of impromtu so he had already ordered pizza for him and me. I felt bad. He said he would bring it over for lunch tomorrow for me....awwwww.
Remember the math test I was telling you about earlier? Well it turns out I didn't suck at it...I got an 89!!! YAY!!!! I was so happy!
Person of the day is my cousin Victoria. She was here tonight. She is 2. She's so cute!
Word of the day is pace. I need to remember to pace myself throughout the week. There is usually one day a week where I totally stress myself out over nothing. Need to keep in mind that I need to take it one day at a time.
I"m off to bed...it's almost 1:30am. Have class in 7 hours. G'night!
Mindy Lou
October 10 Hectic DayHey all!
Today is Sunday. Went to church this morning. Sunday school was really good. Heather's brother Aaron came today. He just got back from Iraq just a few days ago. He's not out yet, just out of Iraq. I think his service will be over in.....January? Febuary? It was really good to see him. It may just be me, but I think we have developed a speacial bond between us since he's been in the Army...an unspoken bond. It's hard to explain. I don't have romantic feelings or anything, just a special connection. Went to Wendy's for lunch...mmmm. After lunch, me, my mom, step dad, step brother and Stephen went to Indy to pick up my grandpa. He flew in from CA. We all had dinner at my aunt's house in Indy...she has such a beautiful home. Had lazagna, penne pasta, cheese cake,....I'm gonna stop there. I told you guys I"m part Italian. Grandpa's plane got there and we met him at my aunt's house. The whole family hung out for most of the night. My mom and I took grandpa back to our house, after dropping off Stephen, only to find that on the way home he doesn't want to stay with us. He wants to stay in an hotel. MMMmmmmmmkay. That made me feel hurt and mad. We spent several hours cleaning our house on Saturday and I washed my sheets so he could sleep in my bed...but no. He wants to stay in a hotel. Why didn't he just tell us before hand? My family is so gay sometimes.
So mom and I didn't get back until about midnight. I'm really tired. Still have homework and class tomorrow. Better go. Stephen said he'll be here at 10am and it's after 1am now. I better get in bed and sleep!
*Tuck Tuck* There, everyone is tucked in. Goodnight!
Person of the day is my cousin David. He is so smart and such a good guy. We have fun. He's at Purdue with Stephen. Now that the 2 of us are in college we don't get to see each other much. It was really good to see him today. He will make an excellent husband and father someday.
Word of the day is discipline. When I get married and have kids, I'm not gonna be afraid to spank them and tell them no. Children need rules and structure in their lives. I want to be a parent first, not just their friend.
Goodnight everyone! Rest well and see you tomorrow! Here's a pic of my cousin David. It's not a good one, but now you know who he is.
Indymay October 07 BusyHello everyone-
Sorry I haven't written in awhile. Been really busy.
Gave my speech a couple days ago. I did really well. 48/50 Hey, I'll take that. Also had a math test today...didn't do so hot on that one.
Today at work was...very long. Today and tomorrow are half days at the school so I will be there from 11:00-6:00. That's 7 hours with 20 elementary school kids!! Someone help! The plan is to bring lots of movies....they can only stay outside so long guys. They drove me nuts today...can't wait for tomorrow.
No, really I can't. Me, Stephen (he's coming home tomorrow by the way), Bill and Rebecca are going putt putting and having dinner, YAY! Should be fun. More on that after it happens, haha.
Person of the day is Kelley. She stayed up with me until like 2am with my math homework. What an awesome friend she is. I'm so lucky and blessed to have you in my life kelley. Thanks so much.
Word of the day is GLITTER. Since it was a half day we did a speacial craft. I made butterfly masks with the kids....there was WAY more glitter on the floor than on the masks. It was absolutley horrible! Glitter is hard to get off anything, let alone a floor. I'll include a pic later..maybe even one of Bill. Bill, if you don't approve let me know and I'll take it down.
I'm tired. Goodnight all. Sleep tight.
M October 03 Sweet SundaysHey guys-
Today was really nice. Got everything solved with stephen. We're cool now. He came over this morning before church. We layed on my bed and talked about it. Today was just....calming. I got to play some World of Warcraft (WoW) and not do homework for the first part of the day. It was nice.
Now that I've been home I have watched some Law and Order and had an ice cream sandwhich. I love both of those things sooo much! Oh, and Bill, Steve and I decided that we all are gonna hang out over fall break (which for stephen is this coming weekend) and you have no say in the matter. Consider yourself warned. And Kelley, I'll pick you up next weekend for an endless night of cookie dough and cactus blossums, hahahaha. (long story everyone....) Ok, I still have homework to do. Hope everyone sleeps well tonight. Drink water!
Person of the day is Terry. That is Stephen's dad. I don't really know why. He's just really calm and soft spoken when he wants to be and can also be a loud and immature dad. Brings out the best in everyone, haha. No offense Terry.
Word of the day is speech. I am giving my demonstrative speech on Tuesday at 11:50 if anyone would like to attend. It's room 225 (I think). It's the word of they day because it's been on my mind for the past week. I"m doing it over how to read music. Wish me luck!
This is how I feel today (see pic below)
G'night all,
M to the I to the N to the D to the Y :) October 02 ScaredHi.
Well guys, today was a total opposite of yeterday.
Stephen and I hung out today and saw a movie ('Flight Plan' with Jodie Foster is really good) and we had dinner at Mark Pi's with his parents. But later on tonight we had a fight and I think he's really mad at me. I'm scared. We have been fighting a lot more than normal lately, that worries me too. When I say fight, I mean we disagree and MAYBE raise our voice a bit. Not your normal couple fighting. We are wussies, haha. About the last few months I feel like things have been slightly going downhill. This is just my opinion, ask him for his. I included his space URL in my lists section. We've been together for over 3 years...I seriously think I would have to go on medication if we ever broke up.
 No, I dunno. That's all I'm gonna say about that. He reads these so I'm not gonna say anymore. Person of the day is Emily. She is my band buddy. She's just cool. Thought I'd add her to my list. She owes me her first born child. (Long story)
Word of the day is nag. I feel like this is all I do to Stephen....I hate feeling like a nagging girlfriend! Gah!!!
And Kelley, don't worry about the hair. it was the washable kind. It came out in one wash. I just felt funky that day. No worries.
Love and hugs,
The Mindy October 01 Surprise!Hi everyone!
Today was good. First of all I didn't have class so that is an automatic plus. I went to bed and woke up when I wanted. It was so nice, AND I get to do the exact thing tonight! YAY!
I had soup again for lunch, but not grilled cheese. I had the same soup too, haha. I found another can in the cupboard. It wasn't as good yesterday. Went to work after that and watched "Aladin." It was so good. I have the whole movie memorized. Especially "A whole new world." I love that song. I could type the whole song from memory right now but I'm sure you guys really don't care. I streaked my hair pink today; the kids liked it. I think I will take a picture, we'll see. After work I went home and had some very good pizza from Pizza Hut. My parents are getting older and they like routine...they go to pizza hut every single Friday night. No joke, look through my last blogs that fall on a friday and I bet I will talk about pizza. Today was hard though. I really missed Stephen a lot. It's been 2 weeks today since I have seen him....Anyway, "Gladiator" was on tonight and we watched that while we ate our pizza. Stephen called at 9:20. We talked for a few minutes and he says he has a noise he wants me to hear. He says he's gonna count down and he'll play it. 3, 2, 1, and I hear a sound like a door bell. I was like, ok, what was that for? I check the front door and nobody was there. I was a little freaked out. I check the back door because the bell sounds are a lot alike for the front and back door and there stands Stephen!!! I scream and drop the phone and tear open the door. We just stood on the porch embracing each other for probably 5 minutes. I am so overcome with joy and shock that I started to cry. I don't think you guys realize how much I miss him when he is gone. I added a picture of us together cause I"m so happy!
So anyway I just got back from taking him home. That's all that I did today. I'll talk to everyone again tomorrow.
Oh! I had to tell a parent that if he didn't pay the company what he owed that we would have to refuse care on Monday for his kids. I was so scared to tell him! I thought he would go off on me, but he didn't. He was cool about it.
Person of the day is my mom, Michele. She doesn't get enough credit from me and she's a good mommy.
Word of the day is popcorn. We had popcorn for snack today at Children Inc. and there was a kid who had 2 bowls of popcorn, a bowl of candy and some juice. That is not the problem, the problem was that he kept asking me literally every 2 minutes for some more popcorn because he was STARVING! The kid is 5 years old! Geez...Well, I'm out of water that means I need to quit.
Everyone sleep well and have a wonderful day!
Mindy September 30 The UnspokenHello Moto-
Well today was more interesting than yesterday's blog. First of all I spent half the day half blind. I woke up late this morning for my 8:30am math class so I was in a hurry. While I was driving my vision was really blury, I assumed that my eyes had not woken up yet. Half way through the math lecture my vision is STILL blury. I go to the bathroom during break to look in the mirror to find that I only have ONE contact in. I put the other in my eye but it must have been blinked out without me noticing. I think I washed it down the drain when I brushed my teeth. The scary thing is that I was on the road during this! Watch out!
After my classes I headed home for lunch. I had a beautiful chunky chicken and noodle soup and a grilled cheese (it was chilly this morning and the warm soup felt good in my tummy; can you tell I have an emotional attachment to food yet??)) I then went to cash my check which was less than I expected then off to work.
It was a good day at work. We spent most of our time outside today. It was so pretty out there. We had sidewalk chalk and played hop scotch. Imagaine 2 girls over the age of 18 (Candy is over 25, I'm 19) playing hop scotch with elementary school kids...it was a sight. Then things went bad. One of the boys fell off of a slide and hurt his back (not bad, just sore) and a girl got her arm stuck under a table (you know, the kind that fold up) and left a nice red pinch mark, and only Tuesday a girl got the wind knocked out of her, scary stuff....injuries are on the rise people. Beware. Tomorrow is movie day at work. I love movie day. We are gonna have popcorn for snack, mmmm. I always get extra butter for the kids. My mom says I should give them healthier snacks BECAUSE they are kids, but I think of it as kids need butter on their popcorn, it's a given. Can I get a 'what what?' :)
Well, that's all for now. I'm tired and cold. It's supposed to get down to 36 tonight!! OH! Maybe it will snow!! How cool would that be? You guys know how much I love snow!
Person of the day is Julia. She is in my group for a class project, she's so put together and cool. You go Julia, you go.
Word of the day is nonverbal. Nonverbal communication is such a huge part of everyone's lives. Here's a cartoon to illustrate. But think about this. Is it possible to not communicate?
See everyone tomorrow!
Mindy September 28 BoringHey all-
Not a lot happened today. Had 2 tests...hard tests. My mind is numb. I studied for endless hours today. Still have to do my math homework and prepare a speech for tomorrow. Wish me luck!
I had leftover peas and mashed potatoes for dinner...delish. I'm watching Law and Order now...it's a good one. I wonder how work will go tomorrow. Let's hope smoothly.
Better get to my homework. See everyone later. I will have better stuff tomorrow hopefully.
Person of the day is Stephen. I miss him so much. Haven't seen him for over a week and a half....won't see him this weekend either. It makes things so much harder when he's not here. Hope I don't have a breakdown! Things are a little stressful right now.
Word of the day is taters. In the words of Rebecca, "Just Joshin your taters." Don't ask. Long story.
Hope everyone sleeps well, I know I will,
Mindy September 27 Band RehersalHow's everyone doing?
Guess what? I had MASHED POTATOES for dinner tonight!!! Well, not just that, but we had salmon patties and peas and mashed potatoes....mmm. Good stuff.
It was such a beautiful day today!! It was nice and cool and the sun shining bright....Did I mention I love Autumn? Well I did in my last blog. I'm sitting by the deck and I have the screen door open and I can feel a nice cool breeze. It smells like winter is on it's way....ahhhhhhhh. I can hear a marching band playing in the distance....wait, a MARCHING BAND? Yes, a marching band. The Sound of North marching band to be exact. How do I konw you ask? Well because I was in it for 4 years, that's why. I live about 5 blocks from my high school. Man does the sound of them playing bring back memories....wow. I won't go into it becaue most of the people that read this know how much of a bandy I was....and still am, hehe. Hearing them play also makes me think of something else.
I realized today that I am glad to be a Hoosier. I love where I live and I would be content staying here if/when I get married. I'm not the kind of person that can't wait to move away from their hometown. I'm comfortable and happy here. (This probably is a sign that I should move, hahaha. Maybe I haven't experience life yet...hmmm) I know that there are other places that are much more modern and filled with city life, but this is where my heart is.
The person of the day is Candy. She is the new person where I work. She's doin a good job and she cracks me up! Word to your mother, Candy, haha.
Word of the day is music. This word sums up one of my passions perfectly (even though the word IS my passion, hehe) I just love music so much. It can be interpreted and expressed in so many differnet ways.
That's about it for tonight. I'm gonna have some Oreos and watch some TV. Here are some band pics for you enjoyment! Most are of freshman and a couple are of me. Am I hot or what?? Some are also at State Finals at the RCA Dome in Indy. Gotta love the drumline. The one of me on the steps was after my last rehersal as a senior....ahhh the memories.
Sleep tight,
Mindy September 26 Work, work, workHey all!
It's yet another episode of the Mindy Live! Show. I'm doing much better today. I'll just say that chocolate was involved....it's a girls best friend.
Got up this morning around 10:30. I was having a weird dream when Stephen woke me up by calling me. He sometimes calls when he is walking to class. So when I woke up I was in a weird mood as a result of a weird dream. It was one of those mornings where you don't know what day it is and you are terrified that you are gonna be late for class if you look at your clock. So anyway, I got dressed and looked up my bank account online. It's been messed up latley. Some guy at Wendy's charged me $10 extra on my debit card...and didn't give me a receipt so I cant do anything about it. Didn't have breakfast or lunch cause I was too busy and went straight to class at 1:00. After class was when things got hectic.
I went to work to find that we have to move the kids to the library because the school is having a school board meeting. Ok, lemme just tell you were I work. I work for Children Inc. It's a daycare type thing. We have a toddler branch and a school age branch. I work for the school age part. I have K-6 graders to look out for. So we usually are in the cafeteria but today we had to move all of our stuff to the library. We have a big toy chest and a bunch of books and papers to take so it was a task. On top of that, since Amanda quit, there was someone decently new. She knew what she was doing (she has children of her own) but she is not really familiar with the paperwork aspect so I had to do ALL of that. To top the day off, there are 2 girls inparticular who were and still are upset with Amanda leaving so they do not listen to me. They gave me a hard time. They are testing my boundaries and trying my trust. This is a vital part of our future relationship but today was not a good day to do that for me. It will get better. It wasn't a bad day, just full of tension.
We had spanish rice, cottage cheese and garlic bread for dinner. It was very good since I didn't eat all day! Well, it's 10 till 10:00 and "Medium" comes on at 10. I need to hurry this up. Anybody else watch Medium? It's a good show.
Person of the day is still me, Mindy. Sorry everyone else, I still need my Mindy time.
Word of the day is autumn. I love this time of year. Especially here in Indiana. The trees here turn absolutley beautiful colors. I'll be sure to take some pictures when they do. I added some pictures of a corn maze that our youth group (when I was in it in high school) goes to every year sometime in October.
That's all for now, drink water and eat some chocolate!
Mindy September 25 Sad Day...Hey...
Today was ok. Got up at 7:15 and took a shower and got ready for church. Sunday school starts at 9am and worship service at 10:30. After church the family went to China Buffet for lunch. I love Chineese food soo much!!! I could live off of egg drop soup and egg rolls. Mmmmm.
After lunch we went to the Commons and saw a movie. We saw "Stealth." It was really good. Stephen would like it. Actually, any guy would like it, haha. After the movie, we came home and uploaded some pictures and e-mailed them to my aunt...blah blah blah , you guys don't care about that part. Then back to church again at 5:30. After church was when things started to get weird.
Throughout the whole day I felt off. I don't know how to explain it...I just felt depressed and lonley. I don't know what's wrong with me....I'm so sad. I went to church for discipleship training at 5:30 (it is an hour long class before the actual service) but I left before service at 6:30. I got to the door and saw it was pouring. I ran to the car and started to drive away. Half way home a slow song came on the radio ("Listen to your Heart") it's a good song. Then I think about the rain. I love rain. It's so romantic and calming to me. Then I realize that I have nobody to listen to the rain with and the song drones on and the rain just keeps coming down...and I just start crying right there in the car. I still don't know why. All I know was that I was and am sad. Not just an unhappy sad, but a heart hurt sad. I cry all the way home and even for another 5 minutes in the driveway. I felt so lonley and not wanted. I don't think it's because of Stephen not coming home. That would be too shallow of me. Maybe it's just the stress of the whole week catching up with me, I dunno. I just feel uncomfortable with how I preceived myself today...no self confidence. I'm a psych. major....the signs of depression are fatigue and not finding pleasure in activities you normally do. I HAVE been really tired latley...of course I go to bed really late so that doesn't count. I still have fun so that's out too. Guess I'm not depressed. Anybody have any guesses?
Ok, I'm gonna go be sad somewhere else. I'm tired of typing and I'm sure you guys are tired of hearing me drag on about my feelings.
Person of the day is me, Mindy. I don't spend enough time by myself and focus on me. So today I am gonna think about me.
Word of the day is rain. I just cannot describe how much I love rain! It's not just rain. It's snow too. Any precipitation really.
I took a picture of how I felt today...enjoy.
Until next time and wishing myself well,
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